When I was a young girl, about six years old, I dreamed of becoming a princess and a mermaid. I don’t know what’s gotten into me that time that I always daydreamed for that. Maybe because I am influenced by the things surrounding me. I have lots of fairytale books, Disneyland movies, and Barbie dolls. These things were always with me day and night when I was at this age.
But this ambition changed when I was nine years old. I felt that I want to be a teacher someday. I love teaching kids what I have learned from my teachers. Maybe I valued my teachers much at that time. I acted like I am the assistant to the teacher because she let me teach those who have difficulty in reading and those who have very poor grades. I love this job that I waste my free time just to teach my classmates how to read and how to solve Math problems.
This ambition continues until I became a Upian. My ambitions were far more great and exciting. I always dreamed of touring different countries in the whole world. My first visit would be in Jerusalem. I like to go to that place because that is the place of Jesus Christ, our Lord. There are also many biblical events happened in that place. I also want to go to Paris and shop fashionable clothes and garments that are comfortable to wear at. Another place would be in Canada. It is where my grandmother and other relatives residing recently. I missed them so much that I want to go there. Because of this dream, I have thought that it would be better if I will be a stewardess or a pilot.
It is so funny that I am so dependent with my wild dreams regarding with my future job. I once dreamed of becoming an agent, surgeon, army, architect, paleontologist, astronaut, and even scientist. Whatever is the most exciting and adventurous job, I then decide to go for it without noticing that I have several fears. I have fears in heights, blood, and risky adventures.
I am such a happy-go-lucky person. I do things that would only satisfy me. I hate making decisions in life. I avoid situations that require such strength and thinking.
But this ambition changed when I was nine years old. I felt that I want to be a teacher someday. I love teaching kids what I have learned from my teachers. Maybe I valued my teachers much at that time. I acted like I am the assistant to the teacher because she let me teach those who have difficulty in reading and those who have very poor grades. I love this job that I waste my free time just to teach my classmates how to read and how to solve Math problems.
This ambition continues until I became a Upian. My ambitions were far more great and exciting. I always dreamed of touring different countries in the whole world. My first visit would be in Jerusalem. I like to go to that place because that is the place of Jesus Christ, our Lord. There are also many biblical events happened in that place. I also want to go to Paris and shop fashionable clothes and garments that are comfortable to wear at. Another place would be in Canada. It is where my grandmother and other relatives residing recently. I missed them so much that I want to go there. Because of this dream, I have thought that it would be better if I will be a stewardess or a pilot.
It is so funny that I am so dependent with my wild dreams regarding with my future job. I once dreamed of becoming an agent, surgeon, army, architect, paleontologist, astronaut, and even scientist. Whatever is the most exciting and adventurous job, I then decide to go for it without noticing that I have several fears. I have fears in heights, blood, and risky adventures.
I am such a happy-go-lucky person. I do things that would only satisfy me. I hate making decisions in life. I avoid situations that require such strength and thinking.
But I don’t want to be like this. I want to change for the betterment of my life. I am so childish but I want to be mature. I really don’t know myself.
It is hard to unravel what I really want with my life. I am such a dependent person that let other people depend my decision. Deciding what course I will take is important to me since I am graduating. I am afraid of such responsibility obtains from deciding such matter like this. I just asked God for a sign regarding this. I always prayed for it.
It is hard to unravel what I really want with my life. I am such a dependent person that let other people depend my decision. Deciding what course I will take is important to me since I am graduating. I am afraid of such responsibility obtains from deciding such matter like this. I just asked God for a sign regarding this. I always prayed for it.
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